Happy Mother's Day.

I'm sitting here thinking about being a mom. What a wonderful and horrible experience at once. There is nothing on earth like the love a of a child and there is nothing on earth like the heartache they can provide. Only a child can melt away your worries and make you know all is right in the world and then make you feel the complete opposite the next minute.
The other day i was in the basement watching BBC America during nap and quiet time (have i mentioned how much i love the BBC America???) and i had the monitor on so if anyone needed me i could quickly put on my superhero cape and fly to the aid of whatever little person happened to need me. My attention was drawn to monitor, i could hear my 6 year old singing quietly. "Jesus loves me this i know for the bible tells me so." on and on the song went. It was a beautiful simple reminder of the fact that Jesus does love me. In that moment i had total peace and comfort. Then a half hour later the same child came downstairs, broke into the peace of the afternoon and began to whine and I started wondering if i had any wine in the house.
All of this is a beautiful window into the heart of God our father. There are moments when we are doing what he created us to do. For everyone it's different, it might be playing an instrument or singing a song or creating a piece of art or for some it might be playing with our kids or hanging out with our spouse or sitting at the bedside of a dying person. What ever it is you do that makes you feel the undeniable presence of something bigger than you could ever be that's what I'm talking about. Those are the moments that we hear "yes Jesus loves me"
And in the moments we are whining about what we don't get or how things are not going our way, God is still there loving us just as much as before.
So happy mother's day to all you wonderful loving and sometimes not as patient as you should be women who do a great thing by raising your children. Have a wonderful and peaceful day and know that yes Jesus loves you...

Rebel Jesus

so i had my ipod on shuffle this morning and a funny thing happen. first Killing in the name of by rage against the machine came on, and it got me thinking about Jesus and how awesome he is at being a rebel and standing up to social injustice and all. And then no joke my favorite Christmas carol came on. It's call Rebel Jesus. It is the only Christmas carol i will listen to all year long. So anyway, so here we have the savior of the world who was a rebel! i love that and that is why i know he "gets me". you see in all those different moments when he could have gone with the flow and done the norm he didn't. For example: the woman caught in adultery he being the only one who had any right to throw a stone told her she was forgiven. Or the woman at the well he could have done the "proper" thing at the time been a good law abiding Jew and ignored the gentile. But what did he do? He talked to her and was kind and honest with her. The list goes on: he healed on the Sabbath, set people free from demons he let a whore was his feet. On and on it goes.
Now that is the kind of guy i can believe in, and want to be like. I can only hope to be so brave and kind. We should all do whats right even if it isn't socially acceptable... And take the side of the rebel Jesus.

Rebel Jesus
By Jackson Browne

All the streets are filled with laughter and light And the music of the season And the merchants' windows are all bright With the faces of the children And the families hurrying to their homes While the sky darkens and freezes Will be gathering around the hearths and tables Giving thanks for God's graces And the birth of the rebel Jesus Well they call him by 'the Prince of Peace' And they call him by 'the Savior 'And they pray to him upon the seas And in every bold endeavor And they fill his churches with their pride and gold As their faith in him increases But they've turned the nature that I worship in From a temple to a robber's den In the words of the rebel Jesus Well we guard our world with locks and guns And we guard our fine possessions And once a year when Christmas comes We give to our relations And perhaps we give a little to the poor If the generosity should seize us But if any one of us should interfere In the business of why there are poor They get the same as the rebel Jesus Now pardon me if I have seemed To take the tone of judgement For I've no wish to come between This day and your enjoyment In a life of hardship and of earthly toil There's a need for anything that frees us So I bid you pleasure And I bid you cheer From a heathen and a pagan On the side of the rebel Jesus

What!?!?!?!

So someone says to me recently " husbands cheat if they don't get enough sex." What?! No hunny husbands who cheat do it because they have no self control. As the flagrant feminist that i am i can not let this statement go ignored. First of all if you are blaming yourself or your lack of sex on someone cheating get your head out of your you know what... i can guarantee that even if you have sex everyday of the week that he is still contemplating other women in his head. It's not what is happening physically that makes someone cheat it's a heart issue. And if someone says "I have to look at other women if we haven't had sex in 3 days." something has gone totally dark in they're heart.
So to anyone reading this who has had this particular discussion with someone or who has heard it from your husband, don't give into the lie. Stand up for yourself tell you husband to grow up and be a man. And seriously if i hear a man ever utter anything sooo stupid i will punch you...
In closing let me just say, Phill thanks for being a good man and a smart one at that. you're the best man i could have gotten... Thank God i didn't end up with a boy in a mans body... And i think you're a great example to others. And to those who have been cheated on, there is hope and healing and its not your fault...

I need a freakin' bailout!

I've been thinking... I am a CEO of a major corporation. It's called Yoder inc. and at this point we are financially in trouble. So why is it that all these other CEOs who are doing dumb things like using their bailout money for stupid retreats and bonuses that they clearly don't need, are benefiting and we here at Yoder inc. are still in financial disarray? I do important things like raise three people to have good morals and values, cook, clean, and run a house and i don't see a flipping dime of that 700 billion dollars. So maybe those fat cat senators and congressmen should consider the average American for some bailouts and not the morons who got us into this mess in the first place...
The good thing in all of this is that while we don't always get what we want, we have what we need(damn the Stones are brilliant!), and that's each other. So in the end I'm more blessed than those dopey idiots who are selfish and greedy. Because maybe if Yoder inc. had all that money we'd loose each other. Because how many of those CEOs go home to their huge mansions and have no one to share it with or no one to connect with? So in the end i end up being way more rich than they'll ever be...

First time...

So here it is my first blog.I have heard and found to be true that the first time for anything is not so pleasant. I had lofty plans for a video blog but settled on this for now. Typing makes me miss a good old fashioned pen and paper. I love the smell of a clean notebook and the smoothness of the ink on said paper. Anyway, people keep telling me how funny i am so hopefully this blog will be good for a few laughs. And now I'll be able to vent to the whole world and not just my poor hubby. And it probably won't be for the faint of heart i tend to have a very limited filter. So that being said proceed with caution.